I know, I know, it's been too long. I just seem to find it hard to sit down and write. Weird, since I love to tell my stories to you... .
Anyway : you'll be wondering what I've been up to these last few months.
Been working on new songs, having fun with Danny in the studio ; trying out sounds, words, music, sex lol!
We made some more dance oriented stuff and in the meantime I'm overflowing with ideas for the "darling nikkie" side. Just have to put things to practise ; I'll be working with live instruments more often now, so that's gonna take some organising. We'll see how it goes. The thing is ; I've learned so much from my previous album that I'm willing to take it further, you know, take even more risks. I've come to a point where I have to be totally honest with myself and make the music I love and not to compromise...I have nothing to lose, right?
Right!

There's this one song we made, called "Can't make u stay" that I'm real happy about. It has a beautiful intro with live violin and strings in the break - this song won't leave me alone. It's about how we can't make anyone stay with us, no matter how much we love them. It shows how vulnerable we are.
When I hear a song, I want to be touched. Whether it makes me want to dance or cry or think doesn't matter.

Some people say :"Yeah, nice idea, but you need money to survive, so you have to compromise from time to time, no?"
This sentence has made me doubt myself often, but every time I gave in to that thought nothing came of it. Really! Every time!
Making music for money...many do it. If that's what you want to do : do it.
Making music for the love of it though, goes deeper (I think).
So why would I waste all that precious energy?! For money? I know for a fact that happiness does not come from that!
Nope - I promised myself to do what I want to do. I will continue working with (young) dj/producers as long as it's on something I like.


Anyway, the girl who played violin on my song is Sonja. She's 23 or so and very talented and lovely. She's also Shai's girlfriend (you know ; he used to play keyboards with the Lords).
In fact, I worked with Shai on a couple of tracks on his album as well as on one for mine. It's very nice and I wish him all the best.

Something completely different : I lost the weight that I'd gained after I quit smoking! It took me a while...I actually joined Weight Watchers (oops - there goes my cool lol) to do it!

Honestly ; I was already depressed and the extra weight made me almost hate what I saw in the mirror. It wasn't going to go away all by itself (believe me ; I tried that :)) so I had to do something about it. Et voilˆ. On days when I feel bad, at least I be looking good! lol!

Outside there's a storm ; the treetops are swinging and when I close my eyes the leaves sound like waves crashing on the shore. It's beautiful and pure (hey that rhymes!). Last night there was so much lightening going on that I even got scared and Danny had to hold me (any excuse for a hug from my baby!).

Today I feel a bit stormy myself and I don't know why...it feels like an undestined longing for I don't know what.

Nikkie